A Psalm by Suzanne

A couple years ago I assigned my beloved Sevies to write an original psalm. To be fair I wrote one too. I came across it while decluttering some files. It amazes me, and frankly disgusts me that I can still be in the same spot again, two years later.

Your beauty is all around me,

yet my heart is not satisfied.

Your love has set me free,

but still I am enslaved.

Why am I always floundering about

searching for answers only You can give?

The desires of the world push the desires

of my heart down so deep.

Holy Father satisfy my heart;

Amazing God free me from slavery;

Faithful Friend help me to seek your counsel.

I praise Your holy name

Strengthen me

Sanctify me

Fill me

Oh, Holy Spirit

Set my focus on You;

Set my feet on Your path

I praise Your Holy name.

Songs by John

An Update on the 30 day Challenge

I am 25 days into the 30 day challenge. I have missed two days. I wish I could say I was a transformed woman. I wish I could say the Word was with me all day. I can't say that.

What I can say is that I know God hears me (Psalm 17:6; Psalm 54:2). I know God does not withold favor from those who walk is blameless (Psalm 84:11-12). I know that if I trust in God my circumstances will not shake me (Psalm 125:1). I know that hope in the Lord lifts my soul (Psalm 42:11). I know that God will reveal my offensive ways and create in me a clean heart (Psalm 139:23-24; Psalm 51:10). I know God is my shield, my peace, my strength (Psalm 112:1, Psalm 119:165, Psalm 7:10). I know that God finishes what He starts (Psalm 138:8).

I can also say that I needed to hear all of those things. I feel connected (most of the time) and that is huge. I can say that journaling has helped me process what I have read and those entries are creating a wonderful dialogue.

30 Day Challenge

I need accountability. I need a deadline. I need self-control.
Today I took my Sunday School teacher's 30 day challenge. The class is on developing a devotional life. A discipline I stink at. But now I am committed. I have to report to the whole class in 30 days.
I pray that in these 30 days I develop the firm foundation I have been longing for. I want so much to build my house on the Rock. To not get to Heaven only to learn God never knew me.

I 'll keep you posted.

She was right

So, sometimes I think my sister exaggerates just a little bit. When she was talking about how emotional it was to see our little guys all up on stage singing about Jesus, I thought she might be a little on the dramatic side. She wasn't. Last night Josiah, Elijah, Isaiah, and John marched out to get ready to sing and I had tears streaming down my face. There they were, our little men, getting ready to tell us all to stay awake and be ready; the Lord is coming soon (or not if you ask John). And while they didn't all sing; they all knew the words (I've heard them all sing/shout/say them a few times in the last weeks). It was more than this mom could bear. It is all I desire in this world is that those four boys will be awake and ready to follow hard and fast after our Savior.